Loving Life

I can't believe it has almost been a month since Cole was born. Life seems to be flying by, except those nights that we get no sleep. (They seem really long.) Things are great though. Cole is growing and changing everyday. He got his pictures taken by his cousin Becca on monday. The pictures are great and I can't wait to see the rest of them. It was so wonderful to have them taken in our home. I just wish i could have a camara ready all the time though. I feel like so many moments pass by that i wish i could catch. His little smiles are becoming more frequent, and although i know they are probably still gas they make me smile too. He is just so wonderful. I am just trying to soak up every moment before i have to go back to work. Oh how I wish we had millions of dollars and neither of us had to work, just enjoy Cole.

Well we went to the doctor for Cole today. I was a little nervous at first, but relieved to find out that there are no shots at the two week check up. When we left the hospital two weeks ago he weighed 5lb 8oz and today he weighed 6lb 6oz, he was 18 inches long two weeks ago and today he was 20 and 3/8. So our little boy is getting big! (well big for him)We also lost his extra belly button part today. I konw this may sound silly, but that falling off makes him seem like ours. He had the bellybutton thing in the hospital and now there are no signs of that time left. I don't know why it seemed like such a big deal to me but it did. I am getting so excited to show him off at thanksgiving. But I also have to go back to work that week and I am not looking forward to that. Ok, maybe I am looking forward to the chance to work again, but it is very soon and I just can't imagine not being with him for hours a day. He will be staying with my mom and pam so he will be in the best of hands even though they aren't mine.

Days and nights are all running together now. I'm not doing very good at keeping things straight or in order. I am wondering how long it will be before I get things together. We are having to change over to formula this week. I am glad we made it 2 weeks with nursing and I don't want to give it up, but my little man is hungry and i'm just not cutting it. He may be little but he is a hungry little fella. We go to his doctor tomorrow and I can't wait to find out how much he weighs and how the doctor think he is doing. I don't know why, but just hearing that all is well will really make me feel better about how things are goin. He is perfect and each day is a new day. It is still amazing to see the world through new eyes. He makes so many faces throughout the day, not really in response to anything but just funny faces. It is like he is getting ready for all the things he will experience soon. (he is warming up his facial muscle)

Got a minute...

I have never been through a hurricane, but if we had one in KY it would probably be pretty close to the way my week has been. Between visitors (which are a blessing!) "tanning time" required by our jaundice, thrush, lack of sleep, and the fact that Jake is covered up at work we are pooped! I have never had thrush before but I have been told it is miserable and my poor little one has it. I turned his tongue and cheeks white, it made it near impossible for him to eat, and turned our passy into something that caused pain instead of a comfort tool. I can't even begin to explain how terrible it is to have your child hurting or upset and not be able to do anything about it. He is to sweet, to little, and to precious to hurt already. It has been awful. Ok not all of it has been awful, just not being able to fix his hurt. He is wonderful. (As you can see in the pictures) We have made it a week at home and I am feeling more confident in my ability to be a mommy. When you are blessed with a child like Cole though being a mommy comes natural. I hope that I can steel a few more moments soon to add more pictures and keep everyone updated better. By the way I apoligize for all the phone calls I have not returned and the lack of post on here. This past week though all I seem to be able to handle is taking care of Cole.

Trying to catch up...

I can't even begin to put into words what it is like to be a mom. Everyone has always told me that you can't imagine it until you are there and boy are they right. It is a whole new persprective of life. I see Jacob in a different light, myself as a whole new person, and this beautiful little boy as the biggest blessing God can give. Jacob is an amazing dad. He is absolutley in love with Cole. He changes poopy diapers like a champ and truly enjoys each moment he has with him. Its amazing how when Jacob and I got married I thought we became one. Once Cole arrived though, we have truly become one. He is our middle ground, our unifying purpose, and our hopeful new beginning. We have been through so much together but parenthood is a new challenge and a new love we have yet to fully experience.
Cole is doing great, he has already gained a whole ounce in a day and a half of being home. He of course is still no bigger than a popcorn fart but growing all the same.
To see some more pictures copy and paste the address below:
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Cole has arrived!

He is finally here. He was born on Oct. 28, 2008 at 12:59. He weighed 5lbs 13oz and 18 inches long. He might be little but he is like mighty mouse. He is already picking his head up , eating and growing quickly. I have company so i will write again later.